well it's super silly....... but i miss u.......

do you ever miss someone you had never met? (well not exactly never, but i do never met that person since we became close *i know, irony..*)
do you ever feel like you can concentrate on anything you do since you spending a lot of your time thinking about that person?
do you ever worried about one person so much that it hurts?
do you ever hated someone so much just because they making you won't be able again to communicate to the person you never met?
do you ever spending time writing blog about the person you never met but missed so much?
do you ever thinking of doing irrational action like going out of town to meet the person you have never met just to apologize and say that you missed that person so much?
do you ever caught yourself doing nothing but thinking everything you gonna say when you met that person, or even imagining hugging him so tight?

well....
i do, i do, i do, i do, i do,,,,
i miss that person so much even though i never met...
i can't concentrate on anything i do just because i spending too much of my time worrying about that person.. i become super clumsy, even more clumsy than i did before since i can't focus on anything.. the only thing i can think of is that person..
i thinking and missing that person so much till it hurts and i don't care.. i cry, i bleed and still not change the fact that i missed that person...
i hate whatever, whoever, makes me won't be able to talk to that person again or even to know that that person was fine and healthy and have a happy life...
i (as you can see now) writing about that person since i frustrating by the fact that i never met that person yet i missed that person this much and keep wondering will that person will ever forgive me...
i even think of doing something irrational.. i want to go after that person, just go to simply say i really really sorry for everything i do, everything that i put that person through, and i know even though i don't deserve a forgiveness from that person i still want to say that i missed and always be there for that person whenever that person need me..
and yes i repeated my imagination of saying a lot of things to that person.. and i mean A LOT!! and i imagining that, that person will forgive me and hugging me super super tight and just by thinking that i cry... OMG...
i know that sound super crazy, irrational, sound really desperate but that is how i feel..
I'M SO SO SO SORRY....

well it's super silly......... but i miss u.......... so much....