Cant get over you

Okaaay.. Another post writen in english. Not because my english is that good but simply because it is too ambarrasing to be writen in Bahasa.. Hahahaha*facepalm*

I'm simply can't get over Somebody.. Can u see how ambarrasing this is? I'm forced to get married while i'm still can't get over Somebody.. Who is this Somebody? My ex.. I know, pathetic.
We were together so long2 time ago.. Lost contact since then and I think I will never in touch with him again even though I wanted too.. But be careful with what you wish for it might come true and mine is and if may I add, in a super bad(or good) timing..

And right now, if u read my previous post, u notice that I'm geting married in april and i'm still struggling About whether I make a right decision, who I really want to be with, will I spend the rest of my life with the wrong person, will I cheat on my marriage..
That kind of question simply filled my head and successfully keeping me wake all night..
Huaaaaaa.. Super stress..